I decided to appreciate my secondary school life, without any regret! :D

My seniors even my brother said to me before, you will miss the time that you having fun with your classmates in secondary school when you're graduated and studying in college.

since i'm kinda curious about outside, kinda desire 'outside' life such as college life etc and also the one who can't wait to leave my school.

but TODAY, I have a sign/mind that i should appreciating my secondary school life (: because, i have an idea that i'll missing my class, school, friends, classmates very very much after i'm studying in college~

I get my mind when i'm shared my classmates' funny respond/situation that we having classes in school to my family member and also

when i'm counted the rest of dates which spm held on.hmmm, the answer i get is... we still only have 56++ days to go~ it's really shocked me D:

but, i didnt have study mood anymore.what i get is... i should appreciated the time when having fun with my friends/classmates (: my friends who read this post, please promise me about keep on contact even though we all are separate to our own way.we can still gathering in anywhere we like when we back to our hometownnn.Just like what our seniors done!

so, I WILL GO TO MY SCHOOL EVERYDAY, WITHOUT ABSENT :DDD I KNOW THAT I'LL NEVER REGRET TO DO SO! LOVE YOU ALL, APPRECIATIVE ALWAYS <33

so be an OWL...

no mood.my eyes are sleep-ly now.since yesterday i woke up for homework in midnight and 3am something like that just fall asleep.today having steamboat with my friends and didn't sleep in the certain time ( 7-10pm) now my eyes are damn sleep-ly even gonna close it but i just don't want to sleep.after steamboat, i feel more and more depressed, i think that's also the reason why i'm scaring about join any activities.sometimes some activities can cheers me up but sometimes can bring me down toooo ); I dunno why i'm depressed for....maybe friends, love, and my worse academic result? maybe all of them having problems in the same time.I scare alone, but i scare to join plp.but then what's you should do?

forget the past please.i beg for you,scarlett... show out your love for everyone around you NOW......

being a human is exhausting?

feel depressed recently.without reason？maybe have, but maybe causes by every part in my life?friends, academic etc.

when the time recess, i can sit on my place without anyone calling for recess together.how much i hope for my junior prefect won't called me down stair and just leave my classroom.and i rather

doing my homework in classroom alone.or maybe just because of myself?who don't wanna join my classmate...i just feel don't wanna join them?I had no idea about my mood~~ );

when recess time, i just walk along the paths in my school un-purposely and let's the god decide for me about who my schoolmate i'l be meet up and chit-chating until the recess time over.but, god treat me not bad too...along my walk, i had been met up many of my schoolmates even can chit-chat happily until the recess time pass 'flies' ~

Thanks god.(Omg, i gonna be a christian?@@) haha.having a nice day, my friends who viewing my post (:

就是因为你付出了全部，才会感到孤单。

Game Over!

I Lose! I trying to be perfect, but i failed.such a useless failure! I cant be the one who i hope to be.no, i didn't over perfective.i hope to be somebody else, somebody living in my real life too with her/him perfective neither ability nor outlook.It's possible to be, but i failed...nothing left to say.I totally FAILED!

我原本以为，爬得越高，跑得越远，就会越被受欢迎。真相，告诉了我这一切。我开始同情那站在最顶端的人们了。你们害怕，感到寂寞，但老天对你们永远是公平，真的。别理会人际不人际，幸福不幸福。它如果要来，它自然会来到你面前...

我开始感到憎恨，我要新生活，我要爱我的人，我要我想要的，我不要羡慕他们有多好多本事！我累了，我的梦想，我向往的生活，我将来要的，我开始没力气再去追求了。为什么支持的人每一次都比冷嘲热讽的人少！不管看多少激励刊物，不管有几多次常常提醒自己别放弃，今天我累了。我不晓得明天、后天、还是未来，我还有没有力气...我完全没头绪。

free from worry, it's good!

don't know when it's happen, everything i'll keep holding in previous, now i do put all down. without the guy i like, without the friend i good particularly, without the one important in my mind. This kind of circumstances, it's good or bad? It depends i think. sometimes i'll feel lonely, but sometimes i'll feel free from worry. my mood just so damn stableeee.

but, sometimes i hope for an emotional which have a great differ 'ups and downs' i wanted to feel the feeling of happiness again! until now, i cant find the one who i'll emphasize since earlier i meet him and so do him tooo.

LOVE, youuuu! always make us, human insane, crazy, helpless, nothing can do! ):

^^"

totally out of mood to do anything today~~ It is because of weekend today? :S

Peaceful :D

now is sunday 5am++, i cant even fall asleep.( i thk mayb ytd before went to Dr.Dai's lecture and have a cup of cappucino in station 1 and making myself so vitality now ^^" ) and 1 week holidays passed by.I'm enjoy my holidays in only this time, you know why?

I had been done many things that I WON'T DO IN MY LIFE BEFORE. This holidays, i never touch my school revision.and what i've done were searching any informations about my interested course or things and sign up those useful websites to become a member and i'll checked their news or feeds for it frequencly to get some skills, knowledges etc. I've learnt many things thru those websites. In the first time, i feel that im living in rich life! I get a lot of knowledges, skills, ideas etc! I spent my time wisely, all this had been my first time :DD I'm feel so calm, tranquil and peaceful now, since my mobile phone had been broken and i'd deleted my facebook account permanently( which was done in carelessly ><" ) I didn't chat or communicate too much to others in this holidays, i just keep searching and searching anything i liked to learn, I've tried my best to live my life better. Yesterday when in lecture, I heard about all this.And one of them are what i'd done and also was what Dr.Dai called for...an interference. If you're planning to be success, the 1st thing that you have to do is cut off all of your interferences which can stop your concentrate in anything you're interesting to. I'm in a cheerful mood after i get what he meant by (:

He said: You need to out with the efforts of thousands of times, you need the concentration of thousands of times, you need to practice deliberately to succeed or makes your dream comes true!

I felt free from worry and tranquil inside me in this holidays! I love this type of feeling so much! But those don't be in long period better i thk, because i'll become those who lack of social skills in the end.It's just for some rest in my holidays and this can help me to have a strong impulse to work hard in my further life tooo! :DDD

praying and wishing... (:

This was taken when in the morning when i took a ladder and climbed to my house's roof :P

and just now about 7-8pm. since tomorrow will be malays' Hari Raya and i can heard a lot of fireworks' sound outside~ I hope i own a camera and i set tripod on my house's roof just to wait the fireworks, fireworks SHOWING TIME! and i can captured it with bulb mode and get a beautiful picture! But all this just appeared inside my mind, i never turns all this to an action.I didnt have any camera now, I cant do anything COOL! ); even my phone was broken, i keep using my sister's phone camera to take pictures.she start feeling fed up.aiks~ I want a camera by only be mine.praying and wishing... (:

I love music (:

photo by www.icanread.tumblr.com
photo by me :P

I love this quota so damn much! ''depressed? earphone in, volume up, ignore the world'' It is so TRUEEEEE! Music can relax my mind, can cheers me up.Jason Mraz's songs are my favourite especially when i get down.His voice is so lovelyyyyyyy <33 :D

How To Train Your Dragon!

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Adobe Photoshop Lightroom 3!

This holidays i'm free enough.and what's do you think that im explored? that's is Adobe Photoshop Lightroom 3! I would like to recommend it, because it is realy easy to use and its functions are amazing~!

this photo was captured by one of my friend(before)



and this i used adobe lightroom 3 to edit. (: (after)



and this was my final edit (: after watching some tutorial (after and AFTER) :P



It is colourful and have lens correction, noise reduction, adjustment brush, gradient filter, saturate any colour you want etc.this all makes me insane! I only use trial version, and i would buy this software in further. :DD
oh ya, my edit skills still in improving and praticing.forgive me.those i saw in flickr,they're just professional in lightroom and their photos are so natural and awesomee (:

This is what life called (:

photo by tumblr.

this quote just touched my thought so deep (:

ya, living in this world.it's always meant we'll faced many challeges and all that just needed our brave,confident,passion to solve it.

just doing your best in every single trouble.and you wil never regret about what you had done.keep on goinggggggg :D

your life whether beautiful or ugly, it's just depend on how you played on it (:

photo by chelseanico on flickr.

it's just so true.just be soft, and you'll become a free and optimistic person in every moments in your life :DDD

doubt...

photo by Todd Klassy

I'm stop played my facebook since my examination was started and this makes myself have so much of time to search my intereste's information,tutorial etc.especially when i was free in my holidays.this makes me have so much of time to start thking bout my future study since my trial was over. my course nid study for 5years in bachelor degree since it's a professional course.
im start doubting whether stressful lifestlye, izzit all dat was wat i want?although it's my interestes...
if im surely decide to study in college in further. for the smartest choice,i shouldnt waste my time in those 3 months who just waiting for their spm result to apply local or goverment foundation courses even college foundation courses if they realy cant get any goverment applyment.
from my 1st planned, i should take my trial result to intake in january.and whn real result announced,if i get much better than my trial result.i can renew my scholarship.

BUT,my interested course...the most benefit dat is studying in goverment university,cuz that can help me skip those extra examination who nid to take personally after finish my degree in college.( since my interested course must accredited by malaysia goverment probably.) if dat, just can be counted as finish my whole degree.In local university it was accredited by, but private just regonized and didnt accredited by malaysia goverment.)
if wanna study in goverment university,i should wait for my real result.and i'l waste my time.without doing nothing mayb.

and bout choosing college...jus now chat wit my senior who studying in dat college which i planned to study,but he said dat,study there was quite expensive no matter in the tuition fee or living cost.especially if u're failed some papers.u should pay again and start again the whole semester.retake fee is not cheap toooo.if not his dad's demand who want my senior study there,he wouldnt choose there surely.and all this makes me start doubting...

which roads should i choose?private or goverment.and do you believe...then god wil said?
stay free(: