being a human is exhausting?

feel depressed recently.without reason？maybe have, but maybe causes by every part in my life?friends, academic etc.

when the time recess, i can sit on my place without anyone calling for recess together.how much i hope for my junior prefect won't called me down stair and just leave my classroom.and i rather

doing my homework in classroom alone.or maybe just because of myself?who don't wanna join my classmate...i just feel don't wanna join them?I had no idea about my mood~~ );

when recess time, i just walk along the paths in my school un-purposely and let's the god decide for me about who my schoolmate i'l be meet up and chit-chating until the recess time over.but, god treat me not bad too...along my walk, i had been met up many of my schoolmates even can chit-chat happily until the recess time pass 'flies' ~

Thanks god.(Omg, i gonna be a christian?@@) haha.having a nice day, my friends who viewing my post (:

就是因为你付出了全部，才会感到孤单。

Game Over!

I Lose! I trying to be perfect, but i failed.such a useless failure! I cant be the one who i hope to be.no, i didn't over perfective.i hope to be somebody else, somebody living in my real life too with her/him perfective neither ability nor outlook.It's possible to be, but i failed...nothing left to say.I totally FAILED!

我原本以为，爬得越高，跑得越远，就会越被受欢迎。真相，告诉了我这一切。我开始同情那站在最顶端的人们了。你们害怕，感到寂寞，但老天对你们永远是公平，真的。别理会人际不人际，幸福不幸福。它如果要来，它自然会来到你面前...

我开始感到憎恨，我要新生活，我要爱我的人，我要我想要的，我不要羡慕他们有多好多本事！我累了，我的梦想，我向往的生活，我将来要的，我开始没力气再去追求了。为什么支持的人每一次都比冷嘲热讽的人少！不管看多少激励刊物，不管有几多次常常提醒自己别放弃，今天我累了。我不晓得明天、后天、还是未来，我还有没有力气...我完全没头绪。

free from worry, it's good!

don't know when it's happen, everything i'll keep holding in previous, now i do put all down. without the guy i like, without the friend i good particularly, without the one important in my mind. This kind of circumstances, it's good or bad? It depends i think. sometimes i'll feel lonely, but sometimes i'll feel free from worry. my mood just so damn stableeee.

but, sometimes i hope for an emotional which have a great differ 'ups and downs' i wanted to feel the feeling of happiness again! until now, i cant find the one who i'll emphasize since earlier i meet him and so do him tooo.

LOVE, youuuu! always make us, human insane, crazy, helpless, nothing can do! ):

^^"

totally out of mood to do anything today~~ It is because of weekend today? :S

Peaceful :D

now is sunday 5am++, i cant even fall asleep.( i thk mayb ytd before went to Dr.Dai's lecture and have a cup of cappucino in station 1 and making myself so vitality now ^^" ) and 1 week holidays passed by.I'm enjoy my holidays in only this time, you know why?

I had been done many things that I WON'T DO IN MY LIFE BEFORE. This holidays, i never touch my school revision.and what i've done were searching any informations about my interested course or things and sign up those useful websites to become a member and i'll checked their news or feeds for it frequencly to get some skills, knowledges etc. I've learnt many things thru those websites. In the first time, i feel that im living in rich life! I get a lot of knowledges, skills, ideas etc! I spent my time wisely, all this had been my first time :DD I'm feel so calm, tranquil and peaceful now, since my mobile phone had been broken and i'd deleted my facebook account permanently( which was done in carelessly ><" ) I didn't chat or communicate too much to others in this holidays, i just keep searching and searching anything i liked to learn, I've tried my best to live my life better. Yesterday when in lecture, I heard about all this.And one of them are what i'd done and also was what Dr.Dai called for...an interference. If you're planning to be success, the 1st thing that you have to do is cut off all of your interferences which can stop your concentrate in anything you're interesting to. I'm in a cheerful mood after i get what he meant by (:

He said: You need to out with the efforts of thousands of times, you need the concentration of thousands of times, you need to practice deliberately to succeed or makes your dream comes true!

I felt free from worry and tranquil inside me in this holidays! I love this type of feeling so much! But those don't be in long period better i thk, because i'll become those who lack of social skills in the end.It's just for some rest in my holidays and this can help me to have a strong impulse to work hard in my further life tooo! :DDD