Wahahahaa! .___. after graduated , will study form 6 or Uni ? =D what sub u study ? hahahah! =D

:DDD form6 sllybus are quite difficult to me.so i thk i wil take foundation in college uni ;D i wil study architecture course~ may i noe who are you?you are just too sweet! my 1st question in formspring it is from YOUUUU <3333 :PP

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I believe in your dream!

In my life, i had been knew about each of my single friends’ dreams.no matter in further study, future life or anything they dream for it.i’m always be the one who support them.i think maybe because of i know about the feeling when ignore by others so well?maybe (: but i’m appreciate that i won’t easily beat by their bad comments about my dreams from now.yet, it can ful-filled my desire?I fallling in love with photography since this year.BUT, i am doubting about does architecture in MY was same as what study in oversea, which full with creative, design, colours and freedom?Or just study all the BORED building law, material studies,calculus etc.less and less of creative thinking classes?since architecture can be separated to applied science and also architectural design.but, one of my friend will go to the college centre to get a right information about all that.and guess what, i’ll follow him to the centre tooo :DD and also get know the colleges’ environment as it is what i want for (: so how bout you, my friends? never give up to chase your dreams ya! :D because i’m freaking believe in your dreams, my dearest friends :DD

I decided to appreciate my secondary school life, without any regret! :D

My seniors even my brother said to me before, you will miss the time that you having fun with your classmates in secondary school when you're graduated and studying in college.

since i'm kinda curious about outside, kinda desire 'outside' life such as college life etc and also the one who can't wait to leave my school.

but TODAY, I have a sign/mind that i should appreciating my secondary school life (: because, i have an idea that i'll missing my class, school, friends, classmates very very much after i'm studying in college~

I get my mind when i'm shared my classmates' funny respond/situation that we having classes in school to my family member and also

when i'm counted the rest of dates which spm held on.hmmm, the answer i get is... we still only have 56++ days to go~ it's really shocked me D:

but, i didnt have study mood anymore.what i get is... i should appreciated the time when having fun with my friends/classmates (: my friends who read this post, please promise me about keep on contact even though we all are separate to our own way.we can still gathering in anywhere we like when we back to our hometownnn.Just like what our seniors done!

so, I WILL GO TO MY SCHOOL EVERYDAY, WITHOUT ABSENT :DDD I KNOW THAT I'LL NEVER REGRET TO DO SO! LOVE YOU ALL, APPRECIATIVE ALWAYS <33

so be an OWL...

no mood.my eyes are sleep-ly now.since yesterday i woke up for homework in midnight and 3am something like that just fall asleep.today having steamboat with my friends and didn't sleep in the certain time ( 7-10pm) now my eyes are damn sleep-ly even gonna close it but i just don't want to sleep.after steamboat, i feel more and more depressed, i think that's also the reason why i'm scaring about join any activities.sometimes some activities can cheers me up but sometimes can bring me down toooo ); I dunno why i'm depressed for....maybe friends, love, and my worse academic result? maybe all of them having problems in the same time.I scare alone, but i scare to join plp.but then what's you should do?

forget the past please.i beg for you,scarlett... show out your love for everyone around you NOW......

being a human is exhausting?

feel depressed recently.without reason？maybe have, but maybe causes by every part in my life?friends, academic etc.

when the time recess, i can sit on my place without anyone calling for recess together.how much i hope for my junior prefect won't called me down stair and just leave my classroom.and i rather

doing my homework in classroom alone.or maybe just because of myself?who don't wanna join my classmate...i just feel don't wanna join them?I had no idea about my mood~~ );

when recess time, i just walk along the paths in my school un-purposely and let's the god decide for me about who my schoolmate i'l be meet up and chit-chating until the recess time over.but, god treat me not bad too...along my walk, i had been met up many of my schoolmates even can chit-chat happily until the recess time pass 'flies' ~

Thanks god.(Omg, i gonna be a christian?@@) haha.having a nice day, my friends who viewing my post (:

就是因为你付出了全部，才会感到孤单。

Game Over!

I Lose! I trying to be perfect, but i failed.such a useless failure! I cant be the one who i hope to be.no, i didn't over perfective.i hope to be somebody else, somebody living in my real life too with her/him perfective neither ability nor outlook.It's possible to be, but i failed...nothing left to say.I totally FAILED!

我原本以为，爬得越高，跑得越远，就会越被受欢迎。真相，告诉了我这一切。我开始同情那站在最顶端的人们了。你们害怕，感到寂寞，但老天对你们永远是公平，真的。别理会人际不人际，幸福不幸福。它如果要来，它自然会来到你面前...

我开始感到憎恨，我要新生活，我要爱我的人，我要我想要的，我不要羡慕他们有多好多本事！我累了，我的梦想，我向往的生活，我将来要的，我开始没力气再去追求了。为什么支持的人每一次都比冷嘲热讽的人少！不管看多少激励刊物，不管有几多次常常提醒自己别放弃，今天我累了。我不晓得明天、后天、还是未来，我还有没有力气...我完全没头绪。

free from worry, it's good!

don't know when it's happen, everything i'll keep holding in previous, now i do put all down. without the guy i like, without the friend i good particularly, without the one important in my mind. This kind of circumstances, it's good or bad? It depends i think. sometimes i'll feel lonely, but sometimes i'll feel free from worry. my mood just so damn stableeee.

but, sometimes i hope for an emotional which have a great differ 'ups and downs' i wanted to feel the feeling of happiness again! until now, i cant find the one who i'll emphasize since earlier i meet him and so do him tooo.

LOVE, youuuu! always make us, human insane, crazy, helpless, nothing can do! ):

^^"

totally out of mood to do anything today~~ It is because of weekend today? :S

Peaceful :D

now is sunday 5am++, i cant even fall asleep.( i thk mayb ytd before went to Dr.Dai's lecture and have a cup of cappucino in station 1 and making myself so vitality now ^^" ) and 1 week holidays passed by.I'm enjoy my holidays in only this time, you know why?

I had been done many things that I WON'T DO IN MY LIFE BEFORE. This holidays, i never touch my school revision.and what i've done were searching any informations about my interested course or things and sign up those useful websites to become a member and i'll checked their news or feeds for it frequencly to get some skills, knowledges etc. I've learnt many things thru those websites. In the first time, i feel that im living in rich life! I get a lot of knowledges, skills, ideas etc! I spent my time wisely, all this had been my first time :DD I'm feel so calm, tranquil and peaceful now, since my mobile phone had been broken and i'd deleted my facebook account permanently( which was done in carelessly ><" ) I didn't chat or communicate too much to others in this holidays, i just keep searching and searching anything i liked to learn, I've tried my best to live my life better. Yesterday when in lecture, I heard about all this.And one of them are what i'd done and also was what Dr.Dai called for...an interference. If you're planning to be success, the 1st thing that you have to do is cut off all of your interferences which can stop your concentrate in anything you're interesting to. I'm in a cheerful mood after i get what he meant by (:

He said: You need to out with the efforts of thousands of times, you need the concentration of thousands of times, you need to practice deliberately to succeed or makes your dream comes true!

I felt free from worry and tranquil inside me in this holidays! I love this type of feeling so much! But those don't be in long period better i thk, because i'll become those who lack of social skills in the end.It's just for some rest in my holidays and this can help me to have a strong impulse to work hard in my further life tooo! :DDD

praying and wishing... (:

This was taken when in the morning when i took a ladder and climbed to my house's roof :P

and just now about 7-8pm. since tomorrow will be malays' Hari Raya and i can heard a lot of fireworks' sound outside~ I hope i own a camera and i set tripod on my house's roof just to wait the fireworks, fireworks SHOWING TIME! and i can captured it with bulb mode and get a beautiful picture! But all this just appeared inside my mind, i never turns all this to an action.I didnt have any camera now, I cant do anything COOL! ); even my phone was broken, i keep using my sister's phone camera to take pictures.she start feeling fed up.aiks~ I want a camera by only be mine.praying and wishing... (:

I love music (:

photo by www.icanread.tumblr.com
photo by me :P

I love this quota so damn much! ''depressed? earphone in, volume up, ignore the world'' It is so TRUEEEEE! Music can relax my mind, can cheers me up.Jason Mraz's songs are my favourite especially when i get down.His voice is so lovelyyyyyyy <33 :D

How To Train Your Dragon!

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Adobe Photoshop Lightroom 3!

This holidays i'm free enough.and what's do you think that im explored? that's is Adobe Photoshop Lightroom 3! I would like to recommend it, because it is realy easy to use and its functions are amazing~!

this photo was captured by one of my friend(before)



and this i used adobe lightroom 3 to edit. (: (after)



and this was my final edit (: after watching some tutorial (after and AFTER) :P



It is colourful and have lens correction, noise reduction, adjustment brush, gradient filter, saturate any colour you want etc.this all makes me insane! I only use trial version, and i would buy this software in further. :DD
oh ya, my edit skills still in improving and praticing.forgive me.those i saw in flickr,they're just professional in lightroom and their photos are so natural and awesomee (:

This is what life called (:

photo by tumblr.

this quote just touched my thought so deep (:

ya, living in this world.it's always meant we'll faced many challeges and all that just needed our brave,confident,passion to solve it.

just doing your best in every single trouble.and you wil never regret about what you had done.keep on goinggggggg :D

your life whether beautiful or ugly, it's just depend on how you played on it (:

photo by chelseanico on flickr.

it's just so true.just be soft, and you'll become a free and optimistic person in every moments in your life :DDD

doubt...

photo by Todd Klassy

I'm stop played my facebook since my examination was started and this makes myself have so much of time to search my intereste's information,tutorial etc.especially when i was free in my holidays.this makes me have so much of time to start thking bout my future study since my trial was over. my course nid study for 5years in bachelor degree since it's a professional course.
im start doubting whether stressful lifestlye, izzit all dat was wat i want?although it's my interestes...
if im surely decide to study in college in further. for the smartest choice,i shouldnt waste my time in those 3 months who just waiting for their spm result to apply local or goverment foundation courses even college foundation courses if they realy cant get any goverment applyment.
from my 1st planned, i should take my trial result to intake in january.and whn real result announced,if i get much better than my trial result.i can renew my scholarship.

BUT,my interested course...the most benefit dat is studying in goverment university,cuz that can help me skip those extra examination who nid to take personally after finish my degree in college.( since my interested course must accredited by malaysia goverment probably.) if dat, just can be counted as finish my whole degree.In local university it was accredited by, but private just regonized and didnt accredited by malaysia goverment.)
if wanna study in goverment university,i should wait for my real result.and i'l waste my time.without doing nothing mayb.

and bout choosing college...jus now chat wit my senior who studying in dat college which i planned to study,but he said dat,study there was quite expensive no matter in the tuition fee or living cost.especially if u're failed some papers.u should pay again and start again the whole semester.retake fee is not cheap toooo.if not his dad's demand who want my senior study there,he wouldnt choose there surely.and all this makes me start doubting...

which roads should i choose?private or goverment.and do you believe...then god wil said?
stay free(:

new photos!

today,31th august~such a gud day for malaysia...but my physic tuition teacher, the one who never unresponsible to her tuition classes.Today she didnt appearred in her tuition place...11.3 was our physic tuition time.bt dy 11.45,she havent attend yet.so what we decide.dat's is bac homeee~ but dat time my mind just dun wan to bac home so accidentally and what should i do dat's is go to any edges of our small hometown wit one of my fren to capture anything we saw.but dat time was almost nearly afternoon,is quite hot about 31degree celcius.I and my fren just walk about 15mins,our sweat dy keep flowing down.lol.and we decide go to another of my fren house for rest :P her house just quite different wit others.her family members like to collect antiques.and that the chance for me to learning capture.and wat i realised that is my photography style is marco! i love to observe any small, tiny things around me! and i searched yesterday about how to choose a best digital slr to urself.before get thru,you should know your photography style.It wil makes much easlier for your to choose the most suitable camera to yourself. I just so damn like to play the focus onto a small tiny thing around me.but the camera i used for above photos was a phone camera.focusing function not so well.what i hope just a begineer digital slr.for me to capture any tiny thing more clearly and colourfully!!

I believe i can fly!

spread my wings and fly away!

);

by mailto:hearitbelieveit@icanread.tumblr.com

why my interestes all touched wit moneys!god, do you heard dat? im start disliking my hobbies! my dream! im dreaming bout it but i just cant even makes them all come true! do you know about dat feeling!? I jus cant even described it out.1st interested in architecture,camera, now was musical instrument! whn i told to my frens and family members as i hope can learn all that to more further.but there was no one! no at all! its really nobody support to me! all of them are though dat im still a child, a kid who jus keep on wasting moneys,jus keep saying without any action in real! but im not! NEVER! im just...didnt have that much effort to realize it since im not come from a rich born.Im not kinda saying but without action! Even though i hav no ideas bout my 'rich' interested too! im just born in wrong flow! totally wrong!

camera.cello.travel.archi...

all are my dreams! im wondering can i make 'em all comes true...? doubt** @@'

digital SLR :D

july 30th, after leo installation,we had a party in meizhen's house.actually i jus go for 'chou re nao' geh X) cuz most of them are f3 :) bt then,when we(meng,bao,vera and i) discovered meizhen DSLR.hehe, sure dat it's our time to play wit it XD

oh yaa, beginner camera,actually is dat's easy to play :P I've learnt some captured skill lu.heheX)


captured from EOS 550D play wit aperture,bulb,shutter speed,etc :DDDD

First time had such longer period trying to play a dslr. meizhen,thanks a lot <333


this is one of my loved shoot from all the photos i captured :DDDDD

Don't!

Dont too dependence to ur classmates or frens...after graduated, they al will go for their own ways! Too dependence, it's just makes u sufficate! So, jus like wat one of my classmate thought: will separately soon, dun put too much of love or regard.all dat will makes you feels hur t... I'm not strong enough as you all... gud in everythingg~ I'm just wat all they said a 'middle class' person' everything just normal...family, studies, knowledge, etc.


Just be who you are, scar! Well, I'm appreciative always. It's just...hope my next journey can be much better :) live simple brings happiness!

:(

peaceful sunday morning :DD

there is 8.33am-11/july/2010...it's time to wake up and prepare for tuition :) btw, mummy suggested having breakfast wit dad at town(me, mum and dad oli...bro and sis stil in sleping><) when im prepare well for tuition...''I having a bad bad day its bout the time i get my way steam rolling watever i see huh, despicable me!!....'' my phone msg alert ring :) msg shows '' khali jus msg me, today tuition cancel, nex tuition sunday 8.45-10.15am'' by erika~well, i stil planning to go out for my breakfast.In the same time, when i noe dat dad and mum gonna cleaning their shop after breakfast, which rent to other bt now, stop for business le :) thn, i've taking my magazine hehe(asian geographic) to spend my time whn they're cleaning their shop in town :D

whn taking breakfast, i've start discussing wit mum and dad bout architecture course(the course i plans to study afterward) :)) they both noe well my passion to archi.bt, i've afraid if i cant ever challege it, after read thru the taylor's boucher which kokloong took to me ytd ): whn studying architecture course...for tuition fee and material cost were an exception, a lot of trip to oversea was a requirement too...to learn their building structure, culture etc. ther was another stress to my family again.nid a lot of money to spend whn travelling ): bt my dad said dat if interesting wit it, go for it! those prob jus solve it wit adoptable :DD tis makes me smile :) i've felt full of hope in my future wit that moment :DDD

btw, my pocket money reached rm70++ within 10days.heheheX) cameraaa, plus mum given me d money...im coming to pick u bac home soon :PPPP hopefullly***

家人是什么？

羡慕...真的很羡慕！朋友的家人对学业的关心，这并不能怪谁，我家人并不是出身于有高等教育的人。当我越长大，受到越高的教育时，我的思想与我家人开始脱奎了...

今天， 是家长日...一开始我家人并不想去领我的成绩单。但我想到，都最后一年了...我用心念书...只希望我的家人能为我多注重我的学业一些就这一些。他们永远都在怀疑我的能力！不过，我没说出来。补习，我告诉他们...我有补习能不能来领成绩，那我就能早一些回家了。我很尽力得对我每个家人好~关心，不过在他们眼里是因为我的自私，才会这么做。我妈来学校领成绩，我发现她没坐下，便去告诉她能坐下。我的关心，我妈回答：“还要到几久？酱多人，我的顾客在等着我，我却在这等！”

我只能回答：“再等下吧~”不久，她直接告诉老师，我3点补习，我其实4点才补...好让我朋友的家长让位给她。当时的我，她没想过我的感受...级任没辙，只好让她领。当我的级任要给予一些劝告时，她只是很敷衍的带过。妈，我知道以前的你并没有受教育的机会。你不觉得当给什么劝告那学生就能进步...不过， 我只希望你能尝试去了解我所学习的到底是关于什么。我的强项，我的弱点...

我的级任肯定发觉怎样的家人就有怎样的女儿。我只想拥有一个家庭名誉不差的家庭，有那么难吗？！有时的我，真的很累了...为家庭，为朋友，更别说爱情！我想我还没有那个能力去拥有吧！ 累。泪

:|

stupid scarr~!!!! T.T

Imaging products

Hope can capture it by myself ):

Nikon DSLR D3000 (RM1700++)

Canon Powershot G10 (RM1700++) Semi Pro

Which 1 should i decide to own it?@@ any suggestion? ):

I plans dat after spm dat week can own it and can bring it on when graduated trip.hee :) mum allowed let me buy it :D today im counting my pocket money and dad joked me dat ''woah, so many money hor?'' and i said dat i want own a cameraa arr.btw, my mum heard it...and said dat she can buy it for me :D I'm happy for dat.bt i tryna to save up my money too.if dat wont bring any stress to my parents =) I decide to buy a camera, in case can had a lot of fun in photography and it useful in my future study tooo.hehee! I love creative photos captured by ori' due to the days i be fren wit who fulfilled of interested in photogarphy :DD

@@

(1st july)expo in school...taylors and UCSI din attend dat day....they disappointed me "( and definitely, i wont get any more detail informations bout the course im interested in their collegee.asked bout engineering courses...but i discovered dat im lack of interested wit dat course...and my 1st choice, architecture was the most challeging course.jus bcuz of it the combinaton of science and art.which nid a lots of building laws and theory.btw, nid creative and a mind wit 'thk out of the box'.every knowledge bout built nid cover it all.even civil engineering, QS, constrution management, etc. im stared wit it when teacher said dat oways solo to present ur project whn in studying. after that, im going to counselling room.For makesure whether dat were jus teacher's opinions or informations.Teacher counseller guide me a lots, and hav a different thking and talks bout dat...thn i knew for it...differ bout opinion and information.And i get a architecture course's student's number.and for sure im asked a lots of questions bout archi.btw, im searching some information bout archi via internet also...when im searching...my sis deliveried me a letter for ALFA college and i opened the letter's cover. I saw a lots of art&design courses dat makes me feel interested jus in between a few seconds! Beside of the position of listed architechture course there was graphic design and i started compare wit it.I had a though dat, if i choosed graphic design...i'll felt relax for me and job opportunities is realy had a large range compared to archi...and dat time, i'm decide 2nd choice was graphic design :) for sure, now im stil feel comfused bout in whether i should challege my 1st choice wit paid it or dun waste the fees and str8 go thru 2nd choice.wel, i din forget to concentrated my revision tooo :D future study, jus understading enough. now spm thn most important! without gud result how can go thru nice even best college U with scholarship.So, leave it for temporarily :P

challege it!

since monday (28th june)...im startin my revise.I realy stress for spm~even hope can past it all with jus close my eyes for a while.after finished school, lunch and shower...is the time for me to revis-ing.haha! guddd (: even usin mobile to online if realy bored whn doing revision, i found the advantage in mobile web le.dat's is wont keep drug in.heeeX) without data charge sure without and pic or photo to view also when surfing FB ") tis can keep me concentrated on my revision and wont leave my writing table and moved to pc table.(jus beside each actually) lol.hahaha! i thk i found the way to revise.jus nid some patient and concentrated to finish read all the sub's reference books...and then the time to do all the past year papers :D hope i can finish my spm wit a satisfield result le ><" hopefullyyy* god, all the effort i giving out...would those comes true?i believe it~will ^^ JiaYou-GahYao-Fighting scarr :D

anyone sign it? hee♥

JYan♥

your voice makes me feel hopeful stil livin' in tis world.

I thought dat i found a best sweet frens

I had a great mood recently.b4 keep felt sorry since break up dat true frenship jus bcuz of im hurt other without knowingly and decided wont hurt others anymore.I thought dat i found it.so dat, i told myself.tis time was a god giv u the 2nd chance to appreciated a true fren.I decide to be a true best fren to others since dat time.bt our way to appreciated frenship was far different.hmm.she dint hurt me actually.jus inside myself, want she had a sweet action etc.bt her attitude was quite different wit me.I hope a sweet frenship and she had a mind, there was too much gud thing wil becum a bad thing.scared too over.regard a fren or frenship never nid to kp showin' out.bt for me.never care bout tis at al.jus knew now i had a true frenship.i nid do wat to shows im appreciated tis frenship and love it so much.For me, dat was hard to maintained a frenship without knowin' each situation or less chat.wel, now understood her way and jus depend on god!Be fren wit her was a fate or jus a...


everytime i try to make me brave and solve the scared for my previous frenship prob,scared others nonsense, try to get close wit and try to be make fren.bt all tis jus excess.tears?i cant believed dat i'm tears again for frenship.after saw ur blog.sorry for makin' u felt dat.fren, u're makes me tears! scared hurt others, tis was the lesson i learned for my previous broke frenship.scared over regard others, tis was the lessons i learned for ytd.hmm, life always like dat.full of challenge,frenship,family. i thk dat was nothin to me ba.i can stand it.i thk.


hmm, it's just not ur fault at all.jus different ways we are.don blame or apologize to.sorry bout my msg.i'm regret now.i shouldnt sent all dat.sorry.i noe ur way now.clearly now.I'll kp be fren wit u.I'll join u all.I'll never lost contact even graduated.I promis-ed.cuz i found the true frenship now (: love you all too!

Friend 4ever

U three.I'm so glad dat i met u both.do u all noe?you both realy a truely and sweeet frens for me.especially ying, you ar. gonna make u be mine le la.aiyo.><" canteen day T-shirt's design.i wont forget 4ever d le. and nian nian ar.so care bout me neh.*touch*I'm felt lucky dat I'm joined dat choir trip.had a lots of sweeet memories.since 1st day until last day <3><" chit-chat again inside our room ><" haha.stil rmb dat.I'm lack of stamina whn nancy try to spoke hokkien well.and i'm str8 lying on ying's hand while ying gonna take something to sara.ying str8 shouted out XD realy funny le :D at night.we all start busy-ing to prepare our bbq and also 8-bao-vegetablesss ><" dat ying keep steal foods to eat dat time le.bt she never forget to share wit us also la.hehe. after 1day.2nd day, we head to sunway :D we ride dat ship of pirate wit 360degree was faint me @@ not juz ride 1 time bt were 2 times whn 1 of them is slow bt another 1 was the fastest @@@@ after dat, we shop in sunway pyramid :D starbucks <3
they keep called to eat more.aiyo.ying and nancy ar, not me lazy to eat is I'm paiseh le><"

scar wont forget all tis momeries for sure <3
fren forever la ya.i'm promised dy liao d ar.never care u both wan it or not :P
i noe im crazy XD love u both <3 <3 <3

not ready yet :'(

future study.I'm scared for it.cuz that course i'm interested(architechture) was limited for some colleges.such like taylors, limkokwing etc... how i can study there with high tuition fees added by living cost.aikz.confused* before i'm desire to study in college jus bcuz of i could stay wit frenz all along the study time.but now... wat should i do? :(